drama.... *sigh*

Heyy (:
so, this past month has been pretty crazy, if you couldn't tell... no computer, crazy field trips, awesome party's, random phone calls, Shakespeare, emails, and LOTS of drama....
today I'm focusing on the drama part... so, I'm LDS, or 'Mormon' and as part of that I've chosen to follow the guidelines the prophets and apostles have given us in the pamphlet For the Strength of Youth, part of which state that we shouldn't be dating till we are sixteen, and even then we should go on group and/or casual dates. In my family, we don't even get the option of casual dates until we are ready to get married, but we can do group dates if we choose when we are sixteen (:
So, the reason I'm bringing this up is because lately there has been a lot of 'drama' involving guys going on in my life... I'm not going to go into details because they aren't mine, but suffice it to say that one of my friends 'likes' another one of my friends... and she decided to... approach... him about it in the form of a letter-poem thingy... and... well, lets just say that it was really awkward.
So, my best friend and I were discussing this and the blog post our friends mother made about it over the phone one night,  and it made me start thinking about the crushes and general 'sillyness' (as sis. keppner says ;) that go on in our lives...
Like most teenage girls, I've had crushes on guys, and still have quite a few now *blush* (; but I've never been like most girls, wanting to know if the guy they like likes them back, or flirting constantly with cute guys and all of that... I think that I've never really wanted to know if the guy I liked liked me back mostly because the strongest crushes I've had were for fictional characters... XD and then I was always really, really shy, and so the idea of actually going up to someone and asking them if they liked me was utterly terrifying.
And the whole flirting thing... well, that has always seemed really stupid to me... I remember when I was little (er... :P), laughing with my friends when the older boys and girls tried to impress each other, and thinking "that's so stupid! why would you try and be someone else to impress boys and/or girls? If someone liked me I would want it to be because they liked ME, not because they liked someone else I was pretending to be... because then they wouldn't be liking me, they would be liking that somebody else." And that's still pretty much what I think (:
However, most girls, and a lot of my friends, do want people to like them. I've noticed that a lot, that most people really care about what other people think about them, and are always trying to be something different to make people like them. One of my cousins is kind of like that, where she really cares what the people think of her,  and yet she try's to act tough, like she doesn't actually care about what they think of her. So many of my friends are insecure, trying to find out who they are and what they should do with their lives, and the things they see and hear in school and in their everyday lives are making a huge influence on them, and not always for the better...
I guess what I've been trying to say through this whole long blog post is that I don't really see why people would willingly put themselves through all this drama and heartache, and for what? acceptance?
 *sigh*
I guess it's just hard for me to understand all this because I know who I am. I know that I am a precious daughter of God, and that he loves me, and so I don't really care what other people think of me, because in the end it really doesn't matter. I mean, yes, there are some people who I admire and who's opinions matter to me, but most people's opinions just really don't matter to me. So it's a bit difficult for me to understand all these people who don't know what I know, and who crave that 'acceptance' that comes from relationships.

Going back and reading through this, it sounds supspciously like a better writen version of my journal...
Well, since my computer is broken and I can no longer write in my journal, this is going to have to sufice as the dumping place for my thoughs. thanks for suffering through this! I think I understand all of this a little bit better now, hopefully this helped you as much as it did me, and maybe even a little bit more. (;
 SMILE PPL! ~Lizzy (:

random week! (:

Heyy (:
soo... sorry i haven't posted in soooo long, like i said my computer is broken, n we only have on computer for all of us... so i have like no time to be on :P
sooo.... last week.... hung out w/ my bff, becca, @ dillards... we tried on fancy dresses n had lots of fun (:
click here for pictures! (:
then on thu we had classes like usual, funn but it was weird cuz the key of liberty class was on a field trip n so it was sooo quiet :P
then on fri we had a field trip to the Estrella Wars! itz like the Renaissance festival but better (; it was really really fun (:
click here for pictures! (:
then afterwards, me and carli whent to rebecca's party... n pretty much just hung out n talked (:
then on sat i had another party w/ my friend abby, which was fun(:
sooooo ya that was pretty much my week! now all i have is homework.... :P  sooooo ya i should probably go n do it.... so bye!!!!! SMILE PPL!!!! ~Lizzy (:

Shopping!! ♥ (:

Heyy (:
So, today we spent most of the day shopping!!!! ♥ (:  it was awesome, we went to Kohls, Goodwill, and this beauty store. I got tons of cute clothes, some jewelry, and when we got home my mom cut my bangs!!!! they are sooo kool!! weeeird, but awesome (: and i can see again!! hahaha ♥ (:
sooo it was funn (: i got some koolness nail polish strips, but they don't stick very well... :( they're still kool though! :D
ok, my mom says i have 2 go now :( byee!!!! SMILE PPLZ!!!! ~Lizzyyy (:

ahhhhh need my life back... >:(

Heyy (:
Sooo... this past week has been very complicated... ppl talk about drama.... they have noooo clue :P
I don't really feel like sharing the whole thing on here, itz really complicated n involves my parents.. so... ya :P
just know that i'm dying because thanks to some... events... my computer is broken and I can't get into it :(
as some of you know, i love to write, and i usually do it on my computer. However, now that it's broken, i have no way of writing my storys :( that still won't stop me from writing, but i really hate writing by hand, cuz itz much harder, my hand hurts like heck after only like 3 pages, and my handwriting pretty much sucks when i'm writing normally :P
so ya i'm not exactly in the best mood right now.... :(
soooo glad i have my music (: w/o it i would b sooo dead and so would everyone else who has to talk to me... i get nasty when i'm in a bad mood ;P but w/ my amazing music playing while i'm writing, or anytime really, i feel sooo much better. itz amazing how my mood will instantly lift when i hear my music ♪♫♪♪♫ ♥ (:
So, in case you couldn't tell i've sort of been treating this blog as an impromptue journal, as my journal is also on my computer, and so i can't get to that either :P the only difference between this blog n my journal is that on here i acually have to make sense... which is kind of hard when i'm trying to write out my thoughts n feelings, because they almost never make 'sense' to any one but me... and even to me they sometimes don't make any sense at all!!!! haha (:
Ok, i think that's enough, and my mom says itz getting 2 late 4 me 2 b on... so BYEE!!!!! SMILE PPL!!! ~Lizzyy (:

Shakespeare!!! ♥ :]

Heyy (:
So, yesterday was really fun :) we did our egg experiment, learned that people are invisible, I met a really creepy stalker ;D, we started blocking the play (it's going to be soooo amazing i'm so excited!!! haha XD) and I got my stuff for my costume so we can start making it!!!!! yay!!! :)
haha so ya... there isn't much else to say... is it weird that i like this fictional character better than any of the real guys i know? :P ohh well... he's kooler than any guy i know XP
so. that's all i have to say. BYEE!!!!!! SMILE PPL!!! ~Lizzyy (:

Taco Bell Dresses ;)

Heyy (:
So, today was pretty fun :) After I was so rudely woken up by my little sister telling me that we're leaving in ten minutes, got dressed and everything, we pretty much spent the whole day shopping :D 
We spent most of our time in Joaan's, picking out the patterns and material for the Prom Dress that I want to make. It's going to be really cool :) I'm going to mix two or three patterns together to make the dress, and it's going to be purple and maybe blue? I'm not sure yet. But it's going to be really amazing. I can't wait until I can make it! :) we're going to wait until the patterns and material are on sale before we buy them though, because they're really expensive :P
After Joaan's we went to Micheal's and got some things for the invitations the Young Women are making for New Beginnings. Then we headed to Taco Bell for lunch :)

This is a really cool picture in Taco Bell, as you can tell by the 'Taco Bell' on the picture... ;) I took a picture of it because I think the alien thingy on the picture is really cool. It looks like a fairy astronaut wearing an Elvis suit haha :D

So, today was pretty fun (: and that's all that I have to say, really. 
So, BYEE!!! SMILE PPL!!! ~Lizzyy (: